Portraits: Baby Boy…

Two more of this beautiful baby boy…he was such a treasure. Check out that smile…baby-photographer-windsor-(2-of-2) newborn-photographer-windsor-(1-of-2)


11 days newborn…

This beautiful little boy came to see me last week with his gorgeous Mama. To say that he stole my heart is an understatement.  Posting this little taster for his family to see. More to come….


A Walk in the Park

Three little girls. The Windsor Great Park. A winter’s day. Lots of mud. A discussion. windsor-portrait-photographer

a new year…a new project…

A new year. A new start. Or rather, a re-start…For a few years now, I have wanted to complete a 365 project. One photo every day for one year. This sounds easy: Have camera. Pick it up. Click.

But any photographer who has tried this knows that LIFE just GETS IN THE WAY. I’ve tried a 365 before. I’ve also tried a 52 week project. And both times, I had to stop to deal with the demands of my business and motherhood.

This year, I’m trying again. But on my terms. Firstly (and most importantly) my daughter has signed up with me. SHE wants to do it with me. She wants to help me remember to take our photo before the daylight gives way to darkness. And sometimes, she will dictate the subject (watch for photos of stuffed animals…I know they will be coming!) Secondly, I will not be posting every day. It was the download-and-post process that killed this project the first time. Instead, I’ll post here weekly with a set photos from that week.

Without much further ado….here we go. Our 365. Beginning 19 December 2014.

Day 1

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Male Portraits and Modelling Headshots

modelling-headshots-photographerJust this morning, it struck me how lucky I am to be a portrait photographer.

Not because I get…for a small part of my day…to walk around with my camera. But because I get to be close to people and their dreams.

I’m there in those first days of a baby’s life. I’ve been present when a child first sits on its own. I see couples and families together in their love for each other…in so many different stages and ages of life.

This month, I’ve also been lucky to create portraits for people who hope to become models.  This doesn’t change how I look to capture a portrait, it only changes the parameter (i.e.…headshot, full body, etc..)

And so…modelling session number 1…best of luck to you C. You’ll be awesome!


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Portraits at 9 Months…

marlow-family-photographerOften I’m asked, when should I photograph my child during his or her first year? Yes there are obvious milestones: 4 month (ish) portraits will capture expression. 7 month (ish) portraits will show expression and seated portraits. And the 13 month (ish…depending on the child) portraits will show all of the above with first steps.

But really, my answer is…anytime. SO much happens in that first year. And children change and change again from week to week and month to month. How nice to capture as much as possible.

And so…here is the gorgeous and engaging S…with all of her expressions.

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Summertime Portraits – Last day of school

ascot-portrait-photographerToday. The last day of reception (kindergarden). Every Mama says this…but how did we get here…so fast? In front of me, I have a little girl growing up. Reading, writing, learning to spell. Adding numbers and counting by 10′s or backwards.

I love that the word VERY is really spelled VERE.  I shall leave for her to learn this next year.  And this morning…TALL was spelled TOL. That’s OK in my book. I treasure the little moments clinging to childhood and innocence.  Because it all goes so very quickly.

This was a year of two different schools (before we found the right one for her), of field trip to farms, of her very first choir performance with a mix of bigger children from other schools. This year we were fascinated with Frozen and Beatrix Potter and drawing flowers and growing sunflowers from seed. This year we gained a pair of STYLING pink glasses.

And so we start our summer today. We both need a rest. But I want to remember today. How beautiful it is.

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In Parliament – A Mother’s Tale

photoOne month ago, I had pleasure to speak at a Parliamentary event on Integrated Medicine and Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis. It was an amazing day in so many ways…To be inside Parliament (sadly, no photos allowed…)..to be sharing our story…and most of all, to have the opportunity to inspire other mothers  on similar journeys to me…I loved the whole experience.

While I was there, I met the editor of the British Homeopathic Magazine. He was interested in our story and my speech will be published here in the UK sometime in the next week or so.  For those of you who are not homeopaths, here it is…. (If you missed my last post, you might want to read this.)

A MOTHER’S TALE (my speech as given in Parliament) 

Isn’t it funny how some life choices lead us to the most unexpected places?

12 years ago, I moved to the UK with my work as a director in a large US company. My life was full and fast-paced. My work was fun and, I thought, challenging.

6  years ago I became a single mother when my daughter, Phoebe, was born. Sharing my life with my beautiful daughter was wonderful, but I was an ocean away from my family and things were far from easy. Little did I know but life was soon to become much, much harder for us both.

In 2011, inspired in part by my beautiful girl, I left the safety and security of my career to pursue my dream of becoming a portrait photographer. I knew this would be difficult, but I believed together we would make it. Setting up as a self-employed photographer inevitably meant life became tougher, especially financially. But none of this had prepared me for what was yet to come.

Two years ago, I sat with my daughter in a very plain, cream-coloured room and heard for the very first time the words “Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis”. Initially, I rejected these words out of hand –they couldn’t apply to us. But yes, in fact, they did! My little girl was three and half years old and diagnosed with a chronic disease.

Her left knee was swollen, and what had started as an intermittent limp, had become something more consistent. Over time, from May to September of that year, she had more and more difficulty walking, and often would wake crying in the morning. She would crawl to my room because she couldn’t walk, and my heart would break for her. Again and again.

My first response to that diagnosis was mixed. On the one hand, I was very much afraid for Phoebe and wanted to find out what modern medicine could offer. We started our medical journey with a general rheumatologist in our local hospital, who, when I didn’t want to inject her knee with steroids straight away, painted a very dark and dire picture. As a result of her words, I was fearfully focused on what the disease might do to my daughter and to her joints. We quickly transferred to a paediatric rheumatologist who listened to me, but who also painted an equally dismal picture. It seemed, according to the rheumatologist, there was no choice but to use some pretty heavy medication to treat my daughter.

Determined response
My second response to the diagnosis was a determined one. I have always held a belief that my mind and my body together can heal. I have always believed that diet is crucially important. For myself, I only used drugs as the very last resort, mainly because I didn’t want their side-effects. Holistic medicine, such as homeopathy, kinesiology, osteopathy, Reiki, acupuncture, reflexology, had all helped both Phoebe and I in the past. And so to treat my daughter’s inflammation, I wanted holistic medicine to be the primary course of treatment, using conventional Western medicine only at those crucial times when my daughter absolutely needed it. I wanted to support and not suppress my daughter’s body, to give her immune system the time and space to right itself.

And so began our journey with an elimination diet (in the beginning, Phoebe had a very long list of food intolerances), with supplements, with homeopathy, with kinesiology and with osteopathy. Her treatment took into consideration her whole self.  My healer worked and continues to work with Phoebe energetically, emotionally, structurally, chemically and nutritionally.

As many of you will know, healing through holistic medicine doesn’t happen overnight. And so in September of that year, when Phoebe’s knee was painful and not getting better, she received a steroid injection into the joint. About this time she was also diagnosed with Uveitis in both eyes, a serious condition associated with JRA which can lead to blindness.  Things were getting worse. For although her knee had responded to the steroid  injection, she soon after suffered another flare-up, this time in both knees with the uveitis continuing to affect  both her eyes.

At each of our hospital check-ups, I was put under increasing pressure to treat Phoebe with Methotrexate (MTX), an anti-rheumatic drug that can have some very serious side-effects including hair loss, seizures, confusion, blurred or loss of vision and, weakness on one or both sides of the body. This was something I was – and am still – adamantly against using. I was told in no uncertain terms that with her presentation of symptoms the chances of remission without MTX were slim to none. I was told I was damaging my daughter. And on more than one occasion, the doctors reduced me to tears by the things they said.


A stubborn lady
Luckily for Phoebe, I can be one stubborn lady. I held my ground. And last June, more than a year after it started, the inflammation disappeared from Phoebe’s eyes and her knees. She remained inflammation-free for nine months. Two months ago, Phoebe’s symptoms returned. However, this time she’s not in pain and her mobility has been little affected. Thankfully, we work VERY closely with our homeopath-kinesiologist and Phoebe is now seen at Great Ormond Street Children’s hospital. But as the medical staff there will tell you, I continue to be as determined as ever to support her system in healing with minimal drug intervention.

That first year following Phoebe’s diagnosis was by far the hardest of my life. On top of the emotional strain of learning my daughter had a serious illness, I felt like I had to fight the system that was in place to support and heal her.

There were no easy answers to Phoebe’s condition from complementary and alternative medicine either. Thank goodness for the Internet! I spent hours researching and spoke to many different holistic therapists and doctors. Phoebe and I saw and spoke to people both here in the UK and in the US, before I found the team of carers that now work to support Phoebe today.

You may be wondering what all this cost me. The simple answer is – quite a bit. How could I afford this? Keep in mind that at the time I was in the second year of setting up my own business, had yet to make any money and was a single mother. And yet in my mind I knew I HAD to afford this.

In terms of both money and time Phoebe’s alternative care was and is expensive. Sometimes we have three or four doctor visits in one week, most of which I pay for. Our food bill has more than doubled because we now eat a primarily Paleo diet: lots and lots of organic vegetables and very high quality, organic meat and wild fish.  Phoebe is taking lots of supplements too, which are also expensive. And every day, on top of being a single mom, on top of running my own business, I spend two to three hours in the kitchen cooking or making fresh juices and smoothies for Phoebe.

For me, this was simply a choice of priorities. Her health and my health come first. Holidays, clothes, eating out, all these things come second.

Is it easy? No!

Can it be done? Yes!

Do I believe Phoebe is healing? Undoubtedly, yes!


Six gifts
Anyone who knows me knows that I think of these last two years as a journey. As difficult as it has been, this has been a time for me of immense learning and a time that has presented me with many, many gifts. And I would like to share six of these gifts with all parents facing a diagnosis of JRA or any other autoimmune disease.

  1. Trust. Trust yourself. Trust your intuition, especially when it comes to you or your child. You are different from any other person. You know your child better than anyone else. You will know deep down when you are on the right path.
  2. What you think and what you say counts. I never say “my daughter has JRA”. I also don’t think of my daughter as sick. She is healing and I see her as whole and well. When she could not walk, I would visualise her running across the field. I would talk to her about the time when she would run. In fact even today, we often march around the park chanting: “My knees are better, my eyes are better, I’m inflammation free.” Silly but effective!
  3. What you eat matters. Period!
  4. There is no “one size fits all” in relation to your or your family’s health. What works to heal one patient will not automatically work to heal your child. The best thing you can do is to find a gifted and compassionate holistic healer, preferably one with training in multiple healing disciplines. And then find a rheumatologist and ophthalmologist who are sympathetic to your viewpoint. They may not agree with you. They may not understand your methods, but at least you can work together for your child.
  5. Be patient. Holistic medicine takes time. It took months if not years to knock my daughter’s immune system out of kilter. It is taking a similar amount of time to bring it back into balance.
  6. Make friends with your fear. Reading this you may think I’m supremely confident and secure in my beliefs. You may think I am without self-doubt when it comes to my decisions as a mother. But that is only because I work all the time on recognising, but not being driven by my fear.


Three wishes
Before I close, I would like to share these three wishes with you.

  • Firstly, I wish for CHOICE. I wish our GPs and our consultants would present information and healing options to us. I wish there were a way that we could work together with our doctors to choose and create a healing treatment plan that utilises the best of Western medicine and holistic medicine in combination. I know other countries are doing this. Why can’t we?
  • I wish we could approach healing with the WHOLE person in mind. As I teach yoga I know that tight hips are not just tight hips. To ease the tightness, the whole body must be worked. Often the mind must soften too. It is the same with autoimmune disease. In my experience, my daughter’s sore knee is not just a sore knee or a wayward immune system. Her issues can be healed but not without considering ALL of her.
  • And lastly, I wish for more SUPPORT and CONNECTION. This has been a very lonely journey for me. Thank goodness for Facebook and the encouragement I received from my friends there. How grateful I am that I met Lauren Vaknine from the British Homeopathic Association, who supported me at a time when I felt very alone. How I wish there was a way to better connect like-minded parents and patients together.

I hope mine and Phoebe’s story offers hope and encouragement to someone embarking on their own healing journey. Namaste!



Here, after the event, with Lauren Vaknine who was instrumental in putting together the entire day.

Denise Balyoz

Denise is a single mother with a passion for healthy living, eating and moving. She is yoga teacher and a family portrait photographer who leverages her American roots and makes her home in Windsor, UK.  You can find more of Denise’s work and her story on www.denisebalyozphotography.com and www.theukmama.com


My Journey to Parliament…

family-photographer-ukPoor neglected blog. It has been a while since I’ve posted. And so it feels right that I come back, not with an update on photography, or yoga, but on us…On our personal journey with health and healing.

It has been two years almost to the day that I first heard the words ‘Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis.’ When the doctor first said them, my brain rejected his words out of hand. No way. Not us…But, in fact, yes way. They were for us…for a time, at least.

In those early days, my Mama-brain and Mama-heart went to battle. In every way that I could. I was soaked in fear for my girl. My mind was heavy with the dire possibilities and prognoses and and I grasped at any straws I could find. I spent days trawling the internet, looking and learning. I spent lots of money and even more time seeing doctors in both Western and alternative medicine.  And I spent hours upon hours in the kitchen preparing healthy food…specialised food that would support my girl’s body in healing. Emotionally, I fought my own internal fear…and I also fought against the dire gloom-and-doom of our (Western) doctors…and even some of my friends.

Plain and simple I wasn’t prepared for the roller coaster of that first year. It was soooo hard.

But deep down, I knew we would be healthy again, and in the end, we were.  Last summer, all the inflammation left and my daughter spent 9 months in remission. And so, it was a bit of a surprise this Spring, when some of the symptoms came back. But this time, I am no longer fighting. I continue to care for her and support her body to heal. Yes, I still spend LOTS of time in the kitchen. But I am no longer fighting a battle in my mind. I am no longer fearful. I believe, deep down, that she will be in remission again. And so she will. (I’ll keep you posted…)

In previous posts, I  blogged about the gifts this journey has given me.  One of those gifts has been to meet  wonderful people. Very early on, I met Lauren, a now 29-year old, JRA survivor. This determined woman had determined parents who, so many years ago, bucked the system to find homeopathic and alternative medical treatment for their girl.  I can’t imagine how hard that must have been without the internet.  Lauren has used her experiences to write and campaign for homeopathic and alternative treatment for JRA. She spoke in Parliament (…and thus how I found her). We became Facebook friends and connected on Skype.

At the time when we met, I remember thinking that I would love, one day, to contribute to the effort to build awareness on alternative healing…for JRA and other autoimmune diseases. Amazingly, that one day is now here.

Next week, Lauren is hosting an event with David Amess, MP, in Parliament. This event is all about JRA and alternative healing. Lauren has invited me to speak at this event and share my story.

And so, on Wednesday, this American, single mother with determination, unusual beliefs on health and healing and (thankfully) a love of cooking will be speaking in the home of the British political system.  How amazing is that!? Wish me luck.

PS. If you know anyone with JRA or autoimmune issues interested in attending, please let me know. I’d love to get an invitation to them. :)





Family Portraits Windsor Great Park

family-photographer-windsorAfter all our crazy weather, how amazing to look out the window and see Spring! Which reminds me…I still need to catch up on blogging a few of my wonderful wintertime sessions.  :)

This beautiful family took advantage of my Christmas mini-session offer. We staying in one location with a shorter session. Everyone…including the dog….had a great time. Their family connection is wonderful and it shows in their portraits….Take a look. :)

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